Everything felt so hard. I struggled to breathe, feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. There were many changes in my life that I didn’t want to think about. I was way outside of my comfort zone. There were many things looming that I didn’t know how to handle. It was all too much. I felt like I was in a tiny raft, bouncing around in a massive sea.
I attempted to slow my breathing and leaned into Jesus’ comfort. And then I saw an image, similar to a Bible story that you might be familiar with when Jesus walks on the water and calls Peter out of the boat.
Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”
But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”
Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
“Yes, come,” Jesus said.
So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”
– Matthew 14:24-31 NLT
In the image I saw, Jesus stood on the water with His hand extended towards me. I was standing in a boat, darkness all around me, except for the Light coming from Jesus. I glanced down at the water, afraid to step out. Then I looked back up at Jesus. He didn’t speak, but His hand was still extended. His eyes softened, seeing my fear. But He smiled at me with encouragement. Then I took a step.
And I knew then that all of the changes in my life were not necessarily bad. Sometimes we have to go through a little discomfort in order to get to the place where God is calling us to go. And if we try to get there on our own, we won’t make it. But if we rely on Him, He will keep us afloat. He will guide our steps and He will give us the strength we need to keep going.
If God is calling you to do something that seems impossible, don’t let your fear hold you back. Keep your eyes on Him. Don’t look down. Step out of the boat. And take hold of His hand.