Take a moment to pause and consider – What does your heart desire? Do you have a dream, or a wish, or a goal? Perhaps there is something tucked deep inside your heart, and you are afraid to even speak it out loud?
That’s how I felt about becoming a writer. I always wanted to be a writer, for as long as I could remember. But it seemed like a huge dream. It was like saying that I was going to become an actress or an astronaut. “Yeah right! That could never happen.” Those were thoughts I had. I didn’t always think them consciously. But in the back of my mind, that’s how I felt.
When I was in high school, I got a job at the public library. I loved my job. So when I looked around for colleges, I looked at those which had library science as a major. However, when I went off to the college, I was told that I shouldn’t major in library science, because my college was not accredited. So I was at a loss on what I should major in. Meanwhile, I got a job at the college library, and I enjoyed it as well. (Notice how both jobs dealt with books?)
The following year I took a computer class and enjoyed it. This particular class fell under the major of business, with a concentration in management information systems. So that’s what I chose to go with.
At this point in my life, the dream of writing was pushed so far back into the recesses of my mind, that I never even considered taking that route in college.
After graduating college, I had a series of programming job. I did like the work that I was doing. But the dream of writing was still tucked deep inside my heart. I voiced this dream only to a select few, such as my husband. But I never mentioned it to most people that I knew. I honestly thought it would never happen. And if I told someone that I wanted to write, then I would look like a failure when it never transpired.
At different times in my life, I sought programs that might help prepare me. I took a non-fiction writing class. I took a novel writing class. I subscribed to writing magazines. I paid good money to join various writing groups. But fear kept me at arm’s length. And I gradually bowed out of each of those programs.
Fear kept me at arm’s length.
As the years passed, I allowed different doubts to enter my mind. “I don’t have what it takes.” “Nobody would want to read anything that I wrote.” “I don’t have an English degree or a Bible degree.” I pretty much had given up completely.
One day my sister sent me a link for Self-Publishing School. I was excited about the idea. But I decided I couldn’t afford it. Fear was still holding me back. A year later, the link for Self-Publishing School came back to me. I fretted over it for a number of weeks before I finally decided to take the plunge and spend the money.
So I started writing. I would write every day. But I felt like what I was writing was junk and that no one would want to read what I wrote. So I set aside my writing and allowed fear to keep ruling my life.
Then one day, I was tired of it all. I was tired of not writing. I was tired of my dreams going down the drain. I was tired of living a mediocre life.
I told my husband that I needed a desk, so that I would have a dedicated place to write. Within a week, he had gotten me a desk off of Craigslist. And I sat down to write every day after work. And in about a month, I completed my first book, Every Day is a Gift.
I am still a bit stunned that this dream actually came to fruition. But I give God all the glory. He knew what my heart desired, and He helped me get there.
So tell me, what does your heart desire? Do you have a dream that seems too big to accomplish? If so, there are two steps you need to take today.
(1) Get the tools you need to accomplish your dream. For me, I needed Self-Publishing School and a desk! So ask yourself, what is one thing you can do today to set the wheels in motion. (Click here for more info on Self-Publishing School.)
(2) Most importantly, pray about it. Tell God what your dream is. He cares about you and the things that you long for. He can help you accomplish your goals, no matter how big they seem.
“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” – Psalm 37:4
Everything felt so hard. I struggled to breathe, feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. There were many changes in my life that I didn’t want to think about. I was way outside of my comfort zone. There were many things looming that I didn’t know how to handle. It was all too much. I felt like I was in a tiny raft, bouncing around in a massive sea.
I attempted to slow my breathing and leaned into Jesus’ comfort. And then I saw an image, similar to a Bible story that you might be familiar with when Jesus walks on the water and calls Peter out of the boat.
Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”
But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”
Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
“Yes, come,” Jesus said.
So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”
– Matthew 14:24-31 NLT
In the image I saw, Jesus stood on the water with His hand extended towards me. I was standing in a boat, darkness all around me, except for the Light coming from Jesus. I glanced down at the water, afraid to step out. Then I looked back up at Jesus. He didn’t speak, but His hand was still extended. His eyes softened, seeing my fear. But He smiled at me with encouragement. Then I took a step.
And I knew then that all of the changes in my life were not necessarily bad. Sometimes we have to go through a little discomfort in order to get to the place where God is calling us to go. And if we try to get there on our own, we won’t make it. But if we rely on Him, He will keep us afloat. He will guide our steps and He will give us the strength we need to keep going.
If God is calling you to do something that seems impossible, don’t let your fear hold you back. Keep your eyes on Him. Don’t look down. Step out of the boat. And take hold of His hand.
I recently had the honor of previewing a new book that will be published this Tuesday, March 27, 2018 – The Peaceful Mom: Building a Healthy Foundation with Christ as Lord by April Cassidy.
I must say, this book is a treasure. It’s like a handbook for Christian Moms. In today’s culture, it can be very difficult to be the Christian Mom that God intended for us to be. There are so many things we encounter each and every day that steal our peace. This causes us to worry and become anxious. And then, in turn, it has a negative effect on our families.
But it doesn’t have to be that way! If we make God the center of our lives, He can help us to live more peaceful lives. And reading April’s book will help tremendously on this path.
This book is amazing. It covers key topics for every Christian Mom. Whether you are a Mom who is tired of trying to balance everything, or a Mom who thinks she has it all figured out, you will get a lot of insight out of this book. There were so many awesome tidbits that I wanted to re-read, and I decided it was best just to read the whole book again. I know this book is one I will treasure and reference for years to come. April has such an extraordinary gift, you will feel more peaceful, just by reading her words. I highly recommend this book!
Here is the LINK to check it out on Amazon.
Also, while you’re at it, check out April’s first book The Peaceful Wife: Living in Submission to Christ as Lord. And April has two blogs that are a powerful resources for Christians women, Peaceful Wife and Peaceful Single Girl. I wish I had these resources years ago when I was dating and first got married! So many young women in today’s world have no guidance on how to be the lady that God intended. We are all going to make mistakes. But through April’s resources, I honestly feel this can help alleviate many of our stumbling blocks.
So, if you are a looking for a good book to read, I recommend preordering April’s new book, The Peaceful Mom now! Happy Reading! 🙂